Sunday, November 20, 2016

Poem on Music


I always like music
the emotional
could be
could be
could bring a
sense of peace
could bring a
wave of energy.
might be wordless,
might be worthless,
it might be wonderful
and full of

Poem on Wonder


I used to
lie awake at night.
Fantasies ran spirited
through my head.
I was safe in these
worlds I created.
Secure in my bed.

Now I
feel trapped in my
head at night.
Work to exhaustion
avoiding the worry
which trespasses unwelcomed
to create tension in
a wondering mind.

I will
learn again
how to dream.
How to wonder
without worry.
How to separate reality
from fantasy.

Monday, November 14, 2016

Important Truths I've Discovered

As I grow older I'm sure this list will grow longer, so look forward to a part 2 sometime in the future <3

Within the last couple years of my life, I’ve learned a lot about myself and my life, or at least how I perceive it. The following are just a few of the many truths I’ve discovered and would like to share with others.

Being correct doesn’t always make you right.

Sometimes you have to discern when a situation calls for words, versus when it calls solely for your presence.

When you comfort others, a small part of yourself is comforted too.

Procrastination is that endless cycle that once it has roots, can seem impossible to shake. But when you put your mind AND heart to something, not even procrastination can dig you away from it.

Beauty is what you make of it, not what it makes of you.

All those times you thought your life would be better once you got to be a teenager, is in some ways very true, but new challenges will always arise.

Your titles (or names) should not define you. You should define your titles.

Yes, yes, I know I’ll be thankful for my “youthful appearance” one day. But that day is not today.

Similarly, why should you care if people think you look younger than you are? Isn’t age supposed to be a sign of wisdom? Spend less time trying to be something you are not and more making the most of who you are.

The more plans you make, the more disappointed you’ll be. The less plans you make, the more frustrated you’ll be.

Poetry has the power to change a person, if the ground experience is similar.

Relax and take a break for a day, away from all your worries, let your mind rest. Appreciate the single moments in life, keep them close to your heart and let them be your hope.

Not everything does happen for a reason, though it can sometimes be easy to assume so. Don’t let yourself be stuck in that mindset; it turns into an awful way of justifying awful things. Create and follow your own future.

Know that you are not alone, someone is always there for you, whether you can see them, or sense them.

Emotions are not weaknesses, allow yourself to feel and to cry when you need to, whether you are a girl OR a boy.

Nobody has it all together. If someone claims to be perfect, they are not. But don’t be afraid to use the word “good”. Good can be improved upon, perfect cannot.

When you learn that something you were taught since you were young is actually wrong, don’t deny it. But don’t tear yourself up over it either. Make an effort to change.

Talk it out. Whenever something is bothering you, tell someone. Or even just say it out loud. Ignoring problems don’t make them go away.

Be confident. Make sure everything you do, you do with pride and confidence. If you decide to take a stand, don’t back down.

Listen. No matter how confident you are in your own stand, listen to other people’s stands, rather than hearing them. Who knows, you may even learn something.

Be open to new ideas. Even if you don’t believe in them at all, be open to the fact that some people might. And that’s okay.

Know your role model. Acknowledging who it is you find yourself looking up to can help you to discern good and bad characteristics from even them, and not get mindlessly caught in copying them in everything.

Find your hobby, that one thing you can’t live a peaceful life without doing occasionally. Hold onto it, because you never know. It may one day save your life.

Take a moment to think back and realize how far you’ve come in the past three to four years. Recognize who you were and appreciate who you now are.

Understand that you still have so much to learn, so many different ideas to reckon with, and realizations to come to.

Please, please comment truths you've found! Love you all!! 

Hope Is...

Here are some thoughts on hope. Please comment!! <3 

Do you wonder what hope is? I often find myself hoping for things, for events, for circumstances, that all seem just out of reach. That must be the appeal in hope: searching for things that seem difficult to achieve, but close enough to reality to be possible. Still, hope must mean something different for each person you ask, and while I cannot imagine to cover what hope may mean for you, I will tell you the numerous things that I have realized hope is to me. We may even be similar.

Hope is the future. It can only exist with something I am looking forward to. It is impossible to have hope for the past, or present, only that the future may hold changes that are overall for the better. Hope guides my way of viewing my future.  Of course, the future could end up looking nothing like I hoped. Yet as I sit here typing, I can’t even imagine a different future for myself than the one I hope I will be able to successfully achieve one day. The thought of the future as an unknown is too terrifying to handle, so I must keep this hope that I clench onto so tightly and pray that this clenching won’t have disastrous impacts on my later life.  

All the above is considering the future as a long time away. However, it is important to note that hope also holds for the very near future, perhaps that the Spanish quiz I feel a bit unprepared for ends up being matching. Yet this type of hope does not have a large impact in my life, because it lasts for only a little while before it flies away when my question is quickly answered.

Hope is an ideal. In this future that I am so desperately hopeful to achieve, it is the definition of an idealistic life for myself. Could my hope be irrational as so many people have told me my plans are? Perhaps, yet my hopeful idealistic future, to me, is quite rational. Even if I don’t meet up perfectly to my ideal person in the future, I at least have a picture in mind to hope for and eventually shape myself into being. Truthfully, some of the ideals that I hope for, I know for a fact won’t come true. World peace for example. I pride myself in being too intelligent to actually believe that wars and ridiculous conflict within nations will come to an end. However, I hope that I can show some people that violence is never the answer to solve conflicts between two parties. War will still go on, but by being able to change another person’s future toward a more peaceful life, will impact their world. Changing as many people’s lives around for the better is my goal which gets as close to my unattainable ideal as possible.

Hope is denial. While the future is important, focusing on hope ends up with me denying the present. Denying that I can currently do anything meaningful to work towards the ideals I mentioned previously. Denying to take care of my own mental well-being, since there will be plenty of time for that AFTER my hopes have come true and been made secure. (Yet the notion that one who is unhappy, can make other people happy, is a ridiculous one.) Denying that to live happily is to live fully in the present, and not where my mind is always picturing the future and my hopes. Hope can, therefore, be dangerous. A vital part in my being, yet if I’m not careful, my passionate hope for the future will overtake how I use my life now. That would be disastrous.

Hope is a lifeguard. A seemingly contradictory statement to the previous, but hope is what keeps me going. If I had no hope… I would have nothing. I believe the same goes for all people, whether they realize it yet or not. I live for the hope of what my life will become when I will be able to fully take charge. What I hope for is what will make me happy. Thinking of my hope DOES make me happier. That joy and passion for my hope is what keeps me content in my day to day life now.

My hope, is what defines me. I have a purpose in life because of it. My view of how I hope my future will pan out, is an example of what is important to me, of what defines me. At times I may feel bullied for the idealistic world I’ve made for my future, but I haven’t let even my own parent’s contradictory statements steer me away from what I believe is right. You see, I don’t hope for money, for fame, but for what is really important to me: a future where I can feel fulfilled and help others to feel fulfilled as well.

Only one question remains: What are you hopeful for?

Hello Again!

Over two years have passed since I last updated this blog.

So hello again!

I would like to use this as a platform to share messages across the world, to show the world a little of what I have to offer. Of what I believe in. Of who I am. Maybe you'll read my posts and see similarities between the two of us.

I'm not completely sure if this blog will consist strictly of heartfelt messages, small stories, poems or all of the above. Probably all of the above.

I cannot promise that I will constantly update, though I will try to share something weekly. I've found that writing is what brings me peace personally, and I have resolved to do more of it.

One thing that I have realized is I have many assignments from my English class last year that I am quite proud of. I may post some of them, and perhaps more from my classes this year!

See you soon!!